Lately I've been taking to this thing where I spend a lot of time attempting to social network.
It's really the silliest thing ever. I think I've always tried to do stuff like that, be it MySpace or Facebook or even regularly updating my LiveJournal way back in the day. I've tried to get back into forum posting (with varying results, really) and just overall trying to do something. Dunno why, really.
I think part of it is my subconscious "charismatic" side or whatever they call it trying to come out. I'm not exactly social by nature and I slip on my tongue a hell of a lot, so at least online, I can take a moment to think about what I'm writing. But even then, I'm starting to falter a bit in what I'm trying to say. Call it nervousness or shyness if you want, but that's how it is.
It kind of ties into my last entry, which for some reason is painful to look at. Good God, if I'm trying to write something serious the least I could do is try to write like it's serious. I'm at a point where I want to be social and just talk to some people and hang out, but I have no idea how to go about doing it anymore. Not that I think I ever did. It took me literally all of five seconds once to go "hey so-and-so, I'm kinda bored, mind if I hang out with you for a little bit" and it worked all of once because I wasn't being dumb. After that, it's kinda just not happened. I know I'm always welcome at Minu's dorm but even then, it's a hassle getting there because I don't drive and I know I have to leave before work the next day, or before she starts classes or something or another.
So, I figure, Facebook or Twitter is the best way to start that. But, it's one of those things that's a work in progress and I don't think is working just yet because I still manage to falter as far as talking to people goes. I think I stopped being one of those "What's up?" "Oh." "So..." types of guys a while back, because I sure as hell can't keep a good conversation going. Social chemistry is a difficult thing to figure out, honestly.
Eh.
